Is it possible to “re-brand” your brand-new blog 4 times in two weeks? Um, yes… yes, it is lol. So, when I first started thinking about starting a blog, I was inspired by a fashion blogger I found on Instagram (See my very first blog post to hear more about that). Originally, I was going to take my shot at being a “fashion” blogger. It seemed easy enough, try on cute clothes and take pictures of them. Who couldn’t pull that off? But as I actually started trying the clothes on and taking the pictures, I realized this just wasn’t me. First of all, I’ve never really considered myself “fashionable.” In fact, I hate the word fashion. I wear what’s comfortable and I usually get pretty stressed when I have to dress outside of my comfort zone. So that was strike one. Then I had to actually take pictures of myself. I’m cool with taking a group picture or posing with a friend, but selfies?! I just can’t do it lol Strike two. In the process though, I did actually take some pictures, so I started posting them on Instagram. I created a separate Instagram designated to my blog and I hadn’t told anybody about it yet. I tried to come up with “natural” sounding captions about my “cute top” that’s only “$19.99 at Target right now” and that was strike three. None of this felt natural and I just couldn’t fake it.
So the idea of what my blog would be changed at least 4 times over the next couple weeks as I thought over what my intentions were and why I wanted to do this in the first place.
Maybe I should rewind a bit more. This past year, my job description changed from elementary school teacher to stay-at-home-mommy. It was a sudden and unexpected change for me and while I love being home with my son, I felt like I lost a part of my identity by leaving the classroom. I loved my job and I hadn’t really considered leaving it.
I did my best to embrace the changes because what mom wouldn’t want to stay home with their child? Isn’t it every girl’s dream to be a stay-at-home-mom? But it’s much harder than it sounds.
I realized that in order for me to be the best mom for my son, I had to find a way to take care of myself. I needed something that allowed me to be creative and feel like I was interacting with other adults. And this blog idea started to fill that void for me.
I’m still in the process of figuring out exactly what this blog will look like but I can assure you, it wont be fashion.
My 5th graders and I used to read a book titled Bud, Not Buddy, and in it, the main character describes how an idea is like a seed. It starts off small and you’d never think that it could grow into a huge tree someday. I’m hoping he’s right and this seed grows into something really beautiful someday. Until then, I’ll be adding water and sunlight hoping for a healthy harvest.